So I suffer from serious depression and anxiety due to being brought up in a home that nurtured those feelings instead of feelings of happiness. My girlfriend of two and a half years graduated recently and while at her graduation weekend I made a big mistake. Unfortunately dealing with my feelings and thoughts sometimes causes me to get in a different mood, a mood that has a temper, is irrational, and impatient. While feeling these things I brought my girlfriend, her family, and her friend into the mess while trying to deal with my rampant thoughts. And while I have apologized to no end, and am doing things now to help my mental health, I cannot help but feel the giant pit in my stomach as I still feel so bad for ruining a moment as special as this for my girlfriend.