Soul crushing, sometimes I think I’m better off dead anxiety. I’m a child of divorce with an angry dad. I’m bisexual, and that’s not ok to some people. I look back on every single thing that I’ve ever done wrong or that I didn’t do and it kills me. Repeat thoughts are “I’m such a fuck up. Why don’t I just die.” I have panic attacks and what feels like depression. I don’t want to call a hotline because I feel like I’m wasting their time. I considered cutting myself or actually killing myself, but I can’t handle pain, so that might be a good thing. This is sloppy and rushed but I’m in a bad place and I need someone to tell me I’m worth a damn.