honestly theres so much to talk about idk where to start.. I have been living at my moms full time for 1.5 years now.. since i left my incredibly emotionally abusive father. Since then its been tought. ive ben on antidepressants before, i almost hung myself last december (the date is approaching again which is something im worried about), ive been off and on as far as being happy goes.. but it gets worse during the winter and its terrifying to know its going to snow any day now.. and yet my mom has been telling me how much more amazing it is here, and that shes prud of me for leaving my dad.. and i know that was a good decision.. but the name calling and screaming that takes place here is just too much.. i cant talk to any of my friends anymore because im always grounded or my phone is taken away. im counting the days until im legally able to pack up and leave.. but that isnt for a few years and i dont know if its worth it.. it seems so far away now and i dont know if i can survive the winter.. no one at school seems to care and the closer it gets to the colder months the less i realize people care about me.. its only the end of september and already im wearing longsleeves.