My life has been so secure lately.
However, my mind feels lost.
I will be sourrounded by people but my whole world is masked with frost
Who would’ve known this was the cost
It’s been over 365 days
And I still feel numb.
I have this array of a smile but it’s as meaningless as a crumb
Why ask for help
when you have always been the one who delt
Most days my mind runs
Free of affliction
It’s slays me to say I struggle with this addiction
A shame so strong I’m Unsure it will ever leave.
How can I ever be okay with me?
I made a promise to myself
To stay alive.
At this moment in time.
That’s the last thing I strive