I’m over reacting and I can’t stop

He’s great. He’s really great. Does everything in the world to help me, supports me, and wants to see me do better. And I can’t help but to feel like it’s a joke. Like he has a secret vendetta to get me or ruin my life or hurt me like I’ve never been hurt before. I push him away with fights and I’m always looking for something wrong and the fact that there isn’t should make me feel better but it just makes me think worse. I feel like it isn’t real. I love him more than words can explain and rationally he loves me too and I know this, he deals with everything and goes through hell and back just to be with me and I can’t stop. I can’t stop thinking of when the days gonna come that he’s gonna hurt me or I’m gonna find out it was a joke. Becuse I mean who could love me. I’m going crazy and I want to be with him and he wants to be with me but it’s like my brain won’t let it happen and it ruins me which ruins him and it’s like I can’t let things be good. I’m hating myself more and more for it and it won’t stop. I feel completely out of control and it’s my life. I want to enjoy it and I want it to be great and I want to be happy and it’s like I just can’t let that happen and it’s killing me.

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Littleyellowkin

This might not be helpful, but… I’ve learned that… The more we question what happens, that the more we try to use logic to describe and analyze everything that happened, happens and will happen, doesn’t help at all. We end up hearing what we want to hear. We make a whole context of everything and even if it isn’t like that you still revolve that same thought. I have that issue. Which might or not be your case. If it is, I recommend you to try not to overthink. It will take time. Am still working on it, but one person’s rate of progress is not the same to the other, so you might end up sorting it out before I get close. Is a suggestion. Try to stop overthinking. Pay attention to what is really happening and not what the logic in your brain tell you might be happening. Be there in both body and mind. Don’t let your mind wonder on what “might” be happening. Let it pay attention to the situation and listen carefully. I hope this is understandable and it helps you somehow. I wish you a nice day, Kass.




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ann

Hi Loveable (cause you are),
How are this going with you?




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