I’m just sitting here TRYING to write a paper for Science. Why do we even have to write papers in Science?? It’s Science. Anyway, I’m here to complain again… I can’t even focus because everything is just piling up in my head. I can’t stop thinking about all of the stuff I have to get done. Scheduling when I can actually study or do my schoolwork, is so overwhelming. Having a job at the same time as being in school is actually really difficult for me. I give props to the people who are taking multiple classes (or are still in high school) with a job. I’m having a really hard time though. Especially since I have absolutely no motivation. All I want to do is watch youtube videos all day and listen to music and not do anything. I’m getting that empty feeling in my stomach again. I can’t shake this feeling. I can’t let it go. There’s always something that just brings me right back to where I started… I can try to stay positive or think about things that aren’t depressing, but then after a while, it just comes right back. I can’t really explain it, but everything is overwhelming and I just want to give up. I’m so tired. I don’t want to try anymore. I don’t want to do anything anymore.